I feel so terrible.
Seriously how does it always get worse than it already is goddammit.
There's EVERYBODY now wanting me to get hospitalized, my parents, my aunt, my doctors.
Screw all these idiots, I don't wanna. I feel enough of a freak already without them putting me in some place with people who're probably weirder than me.
Oh yeah if I don't do this hospitalization my parents are kicking me out, how good is that. No money, no graduation paper, nothing.
Also I feel so fucking alone.
And useless.
Usually when I see gorgeous art it makes my day, some times I feel bad cause I can't compare with it but I still enjoy it and am motivate